THE ENCOURAGERS LIFE

  I Am Not My Circumstances In amongst the busyness of life we do have moments of pause.  My moments used to be filled with thoughts that were more harmful than refreshing. When you have so much chaos going around it’s hard not to wonder,  ‘Is it me? After all, I am the common denominator.’ Was it my fault? Was it my fault that my old boyfriend hit me? Was it my fault that the man I gave my heart to cheated on me over and over? Was it my fault I was used by men? Was it my fault I upset that person because I didn’t want to do what they wanted me to do? Was it my fault that life was an uphill struggle? And the questions would go on and on. Whilst I acknowledge that I am an imperfect person and do take my share of responsibility for my past actions, the fact is that I wasn’t the only one there.  Therefore I can’t take all the blame.   But I was. I wanted to be good so much , that I took all the blame on.  It was a burden that made me sick, upset, tortured and untrusting because... I am hu

  Raising The Unexpected When I found out that I was pregnant I just knew I was having a girl.   I hadn’t had the best experiences from being female and I was ready to take on parenthood where I could advise and protect my little girl.   I dreamt of her growing up and of shopping for wedding dresses, etc.   I was super prepared which made me even more excited. When we were at a scan, the nurse asked if I would like to know the gender of the baby and I excitedly said yes.   This was the moment I would receive my confirmation that my what I felt was right.   'It’s a boy!' She said. 'What on earth was going on?' I thought.   In typical comedic fashion my husband celebrated in 'his knowing' that we were going to have a boy.  Joy filled his face as he told me that he was right all along.   I even think that moment has a place on his resume that he was right and I was wrong. Rascal. I just remember being quiet and stunned after the hospital trip. I did