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Come As You Are

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  From my days as a youth worker I remember one particular night when the conversation went to Christianity. There was a great atmosphere that night. The usual group of guys were in and playing pool became the center focus. We laughed, played and chatted over their day and plans. One lad piped up and said, ‘I don’t think that I could become a Christian right now. I will just make too many mistakes. I just know I couldn’t do it. So I will wait and hopefully I will be able to be one when I am older.’ When I look back at the conversation it hurts. The boy hasn’t become a Christian and I  feel, it’s a testimony of a living a half life.  Its an example of having something inside you, call out, but yet you feel you aren’t worthy or capable of answering it. Therefore it simply doesn’t happen. How many people have had the same experience? Unrealised dreams? Untapped potential? A yearning never fulfilled? All because they looked at their lives and thought, maybe one day I will be ready? Maybe o

He Sent You

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  Moses’ story is vast and complex and holds a wealth of treasures within it. The escape from genocide. The dance between mother and foster/adoptive mother. The tug of his family to his privilege and circumstance.   From murder and desertion. To wandering homeless. To marrying in to a new life.   To then returning to the scene of a crime. To being the leader that God appointed for the Exodus. To delegating and creating a structure in which to serve the community he led in to the desert, destined for the Promised Land.   Moses is a success story out of tragic beginnings. Death. Murder. Separation. Pain. Anguish. Loss. Injustice. Fear. His story is littered with negatives, but yet hope reigns and people are appointed to aid Moses’ survival.   Hope for change. Hope for freedom. Hope for new beginnings.   Moses story can encourage us all if we know what to look out for.   There is one part of his story that I want to encourage you

What You Invest in, Increases

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  Part 2 - Answering the Call I have lived my life in a parallel and in some seasons I still do. One side is full of heartache.  Not feeling worthy of life, happiness and purpose.  On that side I would feel like I was an annoyance, hindrance and that I was completely useless, taking up valuable oxygen on the planet.  The other side was the opposite.  Something deep down inside, told me that I was worth something.  And those thoughts, that voice, was continual and a complete contradiction to everything I was feeling and facing.   Those that have lived that way can back me up in this because this living condition can be toxic and I personally feel it claims many beautiful, intelligent and extraordinary people in our society. Living with these two dialogues left me feeling constantly like I was not enough, but chirping away was the other side telling me who I really was.  Often it wouldn’t be backed up with evidence.  It would feel like it was watching a movie trailer of the hop

What You Invest In, Increases Part 1

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Part 1: What You Have Is Enough I must admit that I love scripture.  It’s so rich and with the right eyes and enough research it can change lives. Although all of it is great, there are a few stories that have been formative in my life. One of them is the, 'Feeding of the Five Thousand.' I grew up in a stable family.  I didn’t suffer at their hands but it seemed my issues were outside the home.  Friendships were difficult, school was a struggle and well, I didn't like myself that much.  It is possible, because others didn't like me that much either and I was so desperate to be accepted, that I jumped on the bandwagon.  But I certainly grew up looking down on myself. I was never academic enough. Never popular enough. Never respected enough. Never street smart enough. Never appreciated enough. But yet something inside me was different.  I knew these feelings weren’t the truth. As I recall my childhood there is one thing that sticks out in my memory.  I felt different.  I