Becoming Woman
For all of my life I have not been the ‘average,’ woman. To each person that may mean something different so, I would like to clarify my perspective. When I was growing up I thought womanhood was about; Dolls Having boyfriends or male admirers Gentleness Quietness Fertility Being good at stuff but not sharing about it. Knowing how to dress Knowing how to style my hair and do the whole makeup thing And I didn’t fit. I hated dolls and they still creep me out a little bit. I was often mistaken for a boy because I was always covered in nature or doing, ‘boy activities.’ In fact I have often worked in male dominated environments. Environments that woman are a rarity. This didn’t allow boys to find me datable or attractive and I became a, ‘good time girl,’ rather than girlfriend material. And the worst thing was, I let them. I wanted to be loved and adored but I met men that preyed on that desperation. And any good guy that came along I foun